A major sign of digging into deeper shamanic waters is a rapid cycling of TOTEM Animals. Despite having just initiated intense spiritual work with Snake, it became obvious that Crow was starting to sneak in. For three consecutive days last week, I had dreams in various rooms, all of which featured framed paintings of crows hung on their walls. Subtle as it was, I kept waking up in the morning, briefly thinking, "Huh, guess I'm going to have crow medicine now" before forgetting about the visit as my day started to unfold.
Then, yesterday, while walking my dog and talking to my friend on the phone, I was visited by a murder of crows (proper term), in excess of 50 or 60 birds. It was SO magical. They came down low- within a few feet of my head- and didn't seem at all put off by my large, wolfie-looking dog. One even landed just in front of me, looking right at me, as if to say, "We're going to be working together now."
Since that moment, Crow has been very present as a TOTEM Animal...but so has a higher-level Spirit Guide connected to crows: Odin. And, well, he's kind of my favorite. Check out this compilation of Odin aka "Mr. Wednesday" from Neil Gaiman's American Gods: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=_fvuUguBUQo for some Odin color and context.
Yesterday evening- after the great crow visit of 2021- I got a sudden sense that Odin was around. I was sitting on the couch and I got a sudden flash of a crow in my mind's eye. I hit "mute" on the TV and sat for just a second when my iPhone started shuffling and playing music on its own.
As an experienced shaman and all around weirdo, I knew this might be an opportunity for a "shufflemancy" session- i.e. using my iPhone's shuffle function in a Q&A divination session with spirit. Feeling a bit nuts but also pretty optimistic, I started asking questions out loud. The iPhone would shuffle to a song title that seemed to directly respond to my question, often with humor and a wink (which is exactly Odin's style).
These moments of spiritual connection are so uplifting for those of us that do this work, and they serve as a critical reminder of why we do what we do.
So, today, I sat back and pondered the “why”. What is the significance of Crow and of Odin at this particular point in time? What was revealed in my "shufflemancy" session? What hint I should be taking from the universe? I started reflecting on the last year and what’s to come for TOTEM, passing everything through this shamanic filter of “why?”. And, for me, the "why" is because I love interacting with spirit. This recent interlude with Odin and Crow is a critical reminder of why this work is so important for me and my clients. Because, if it’s real (and I personally believe it is), what could possibly be cooler or matter more?
And that message is encouraging me to take a bit of time off from 1:1 sessions with clients for the rest of the year. I’ll also be taking a break from social media which, while an important tool that has connected me with wonderful people, is incredibly energetically draining. Social media is also a primary distraction from just sitting quietly and listening to spirit, which I believe I am being called to do in a major way.
If you reach out to schedule a session, I’ll be reaching out via email and scheduling 1:1 client sessions in windows in January and February. As per usual, I'll be going in order of first come, first serve, and I already have a short list I'm circling back with for 2022 appointments.
Taking some time
It’s been a big, long year with a lot of new beginnings, changes and lessons learned, and even more dynamic things to come in 2022. I feel like a need a minute to sit with spirit, focus on some personal projects, and get my physical and energy bodies ready to hit the ground running in the new year.
To that end, I just wanted to highlight a few of our recent projects, updates, or upcoming offerings to tie you over for the rest of Yuletide:
TOTEM does the In The Good Company Podcast
We were honored to sit down with Anna Malus Kitzmann of the In The Good Company Podcast, which focuses on “No BS conversations about creating conscious businesses, healing, changing the world for better, life and other good stuff.” Check out our episode HERE.
We talk about magic, our TOTEM Tarot Deck, and that time I got attacked by a demon…and how that whole experience is really where TOTEM started. Anna is a lovely human being who has unfiltered, interesting chats- so please like, share, subscribe and download! And please check out the other podcasts and interviews we've done HERE if you want to brush up on all things shamanic and spiritual.
TOTEM Tarot Deck
2022 was the launch our TOTEM Tarot Deck on Amazon, and I’m so grateful that so many of you have found it to be an effective and inspiring spiritual tool. We put several years of thought and work into this effort, and I felt moved by spirit to bring this project to the human marketplace, perhaps urged along by the very spirits getting a bit of shine as new practitioners pull their card, learning about and researching their long-forgotten stories and attributes. Creating the deck was a labor of love, an exercise in pure creation and expression and spiritual channeling, and I’m very grateful to all of you who have supported us by purchasing one.
Free TOTEM Energy Session
If you have purchased the TOTEM Tarot Deck and haven’t written a review on Amazon already, please do so and email me the review HERE. I’m doing a raffle of reviewers before the end of the year to give out a free remote TOTEM Energy Session. And, considering it is the holiday season, our TOTEM Tarot Deck really does make a perfect gift for anyone in your life that is spiritually-curious and wants to build their own muscles of intuition. If you purchase the Deck as a holiday gift, shoot me a photo or tag me on Instagram and we’ll feature you with a Yuletide shout out!
TOTEM Website Refresh
We’ve just refreshed our TOTEM website, reflecting changes to services, additions of new services, and more detail on our TOTEM Tarot Deck. Please note: TOTEM 1:1 session prices have increased slightly from last year- details can be found on our Services page HERE.
TOTEM Spiritual Transformation Coaching
We have sold out our upcoming Spiritual Transformation Coaching program for the first run in the New Year, and I’m thrilled to do this deeper dive work with absolutely wonderful human beings. If you are interested in learning more, check out our services page here or email me HERE for a PDF Frequently Asked Questions (FAQ) document. If you would like to participate in a coming wave of this program, please email me asap as I’m already building a Wait List and will be reaching out in March 2022 to check in and formalize things for another round of the program.
TOTEM Book Project
In addition to our new Coaching Service, we will also be working with an incredible expert on a book proposal: a nonfiction concept around a “handbook for the spiritually homeless”, all through our unique TOTEM shamanic point of view. This is a large lift effort with a lot of required content development, so I’m strategically allotting time to invest in this effort. As such, my availability for 1:1 client sessions is going to be a bit compressed in first quarter of 2022, so if you’re interested in a private 1:1 session, please reach out in advance. We appreciate your patience as we work to create new things for our shared spiritual ecosystem.
And, in closing, we circle back to Crow. I have some previous experience with Crow and Odin, but this time around with these particular Spirit Guides feels a bit different. According to Ted Andrews, Author of Animal Speak, "the crow is a spirit animal associated with life mysteries and magic. The power of this bird as totem and spirit guide is provide insight and means of supporting intentions. Sign of luck, it is also associated with the archetype of the trickster; be aware of deceiving appearances. If the crow has chosen you as your spirit or totem animal, it supports you in developing the power of sight, transformation, and connection with life’s magic."
And I suppose that's my holiday wish for myself and for you- that you enjoy a connection with life's magic. Keep an eye out for our feathered friends, for flashes of the bird in your dreams or waking consciousness, or see what TOTEM Animal or Spirit Guide comes your way.
This time building up to and around the Solstice is among the most magical in the year. The veils between worlds thins, and all of our friends on the other side become so much more available to us here in time/ space.
So, in closing, have a wonderful Solstice and Yule and a lovely New Year...
...and may the crows be with you.